Deathbed

When every thought brings so much pain
 It's hard to explain
 I don't wanna feel anything
 It's hard to explain
 I don't wanna change
 Something in my brain
 Telling me to hate
 All I ever say
 I don't wanna change
 Something in my brain
 Won't go away
 Far from home, where you'll find me
 Made my bed and I'll finally
 Lay in it
 Lay in it
 Far from home, where you'll find me
 Made my deathbed and I'll finally
 Lay in it
 I'll lay in it
 Packed and on my own
 Rather be fucked up all alone
 Airplane mode on my iPhone
 Running from a careless path I wish I'd never known
 (But I know that)
 Everyone that I believed in was holding me back, matter of fact
 I wasn't leaving because what I needed
 Was space that I lacked, I got off track
 Don't wanna do it by myself, but I don't want no help
 The only way's to go away and write a story to tell
 Made a promise that I'd love myself and a promise that I'd break it
 Made a promise that I'd get better and a promise that I'd fake it
 Promised myself that I'd give it up, give up everything you hated
 Made a promise that I'd enjoy my life, and a promise that I'd take it
 (Far from home, where you'll find me)
 (Made my bed and I'll finally)
 Lay in it
 Lay in it
 Far from home, where you'll find me
 Made my deathbed and I'll finally
 Lay in it
 I'll lay in it
 Far from home, where you'll find me
 Made my bed and I'll finally
 Lay in it
 Lay in it
 Far from home, where you'll find me
 Made my deathbed and I'll finally
 Lay in it
 I'll lay in it