The Stupid Things We Did

I don't know why I do this every year
 I should have learned by now that there is no one in this
 world that I should be with
 But I want someone
 To kiss me
 And hold me
 And let me taste their skin
 And tell me funny stories about the
 Stupid things they did
 But
 I'm not smart enough
 And I'm not handsome enough
 And I'm not into resting
 Enough
 To keep anyone
 Next to me
 In the mornings I
 Wake up first
 To pretend that life
 Won't
 Get in the way
 But I
 Know that you are beautiful
 And there is no reason
 Why you should stay
 Because I am so fucking stupid
 And I am someone who is afraid
 To be left
 By myself
 And I do expect you
 And I don't blame you
 And I do expect you
 To be leaving me
 On my own
 Love doesn't exist in me
 I don't trust
 Anything but puppets
 And my secret place
 This is why I always speak so vaguely
 And none of my songs ever make
 Any sense
 I'm not smart enough
 And I'm not handsome enough
 And I'm not interesting enough
 To keep anyone next to me