Insecurities

This can't be happening
 I don't know how the fuck I ended up here
 Once again I'm grasping at sand
 When everything thing I've known slips right through my hands
 I'm holding on, but life seems to linger
 Cast down I've lost it all
 Forgotten
 You love to see me crawl
 Tarnished is the armor I wear
 I let you in and now I wonder how I fell
 Is this my own personal hell
 Expectations have led me down a well of despair
 I can't help but wonder
 Is this my own personal hell
 Where I'm doomed to dwell
 I lay here a broken soul
 Broken soul with no hope
 I've lost it long ago
 My demons are lurking they serve to swallow me whole
 This can't be happening
 I'm undone at the seams
 What the fuck have I done
 Complacency, was it all just a dream
 Am I insane I'm losing my sanity
 Fuck
 My future is bleak and fucking empty
 I'd rather be at least a passing memory
 The only option
 May death come for me
 May death come for me
 To lessen the pain
 Smoke the brains from my frame