This Is Not What I Thought

As I collect my moments bowed with the hollow
 As if I could see
 a light to follow
 I Spent my life
 chasing for something
 When all my hope
 points to nothing
 No bliss, I fall into the split
 And my mind always seems to drift.
 Black holes of my mind
 With no light to find
 With no hope in sight
 None of this feels alright
 Don't look down don't look down
 The abyss is black
 Don't look back don't look back
 Whats the sense in that?
 Remember
 To take a stand
 You'll find strength
 Within your plan
 The truth is in your hands
 Don't drown in the quick sand
 Remember all the times that you've failed?
 Now you get to hold onto truth and prevail
 Remember all the times you've failed?!
 Now you get to hold onto truth and prevail
 Don't look down don't look down
 The abyss is black
 Don't look back don't look back
 Whats the sense in that?
 Remember
 To take a stand
 You'll find strength
 Within your plan
 The truth is in your hands
 Don't drown in the quick sand
 I'm done counting my demons
 I'm done counting my reasons
 My shadows wont take me away