i tried everything (feat. Kailee Morgue & Zaini)

I swear I've tried everything
 Cut the coffee for some tea
 Cutting friends off who were mean
 And i tried to get more sleep
 I swear I tried everything they said's supposed to work
 How come no one told me as a kid that life's supposed to hurt
 Yeah I heard that better days are right around the corner but
 I peeked around it just to find out that I'm sort of fucked (damn)
 So now I walk around emotionless a hopeless mess
 Drowning in this hopelessness
 Pretending that I'm swimming let's see how long I can hold my breath
 Before I hit the bottom floor
 Hide away and lock my door and overthink my problems more
 I just don't know why it's gotta be this hard to exist
 There's nothing left that I can do to help I'm convinced, cuz
 I swear I've tried everything
 Cut the coffee for some tea
 Cutting friends off cuz they're mean
 And i tried to get more sleep
 I swear I've tried everything and haven't seen a result
 Wish I could go back to my teens don't wanna be an adult
 My life just isn't how it seemed it'd be when I was a kid
 Now when I wake up from my dreams
 I wish that never woke cuz they're so vivid
 But the second I get out of bed I watch it fade to monotone
 Surrounded by the ones I love but in my head I'm all alone
 I put my phone silent take a walk and then it starts to rain
 Coincidence but ever since it happened haven't been the same
 Why's it gotta be this hard to exist
 There's nothing left that I can do to help I'm convinced, cuz
 I swear I've tried everything
 Cut the coffee for some tea
 Cutting friends off cuz they're mean
 And i tried to get more sleep
 I swear I've tried it all
 Got better sleep
 Had therapy two times a week
 I hit a wall and I broke to pieces
 Still ain't gotten back on my feet
 I don't recall feeling like myself
 This medication I'm on's no help
 I try to hide how I feel inside
 But I'm losing grip of my mental health
 Why's it gotta be this hard to exist
 There's nothing left that I can do to help I'm convinced, cuz
 I swear I've tried everything
 Cut the coffee for some tea
 Cutting friends off who were mean
 And i tried to get more sleep
 But the roots are planted so deep
 Do you think that you could love me