Beneath the Waves

Can I tell you all my secrets
 I am doubting myself
 Big surprise, I bet you did not expect anything else
 Because I am feeling just a little overwhelmed at the moment
 And I don't know if I can handle all this well-up of emotion
 While I'm feeling like a fuck up, right down to my bones
 Like I'll self-sabotage and just end up alone
 So I wake up, suffer through my routines
 But what's the point of living if you can't live free
 She says I've got so much more to look forward to
 But the only thing that gets my heart beating is playing my guitar in these back rooms
 So you can stay with me just for tonight, but I am not like them
 I make no promises if I can't get the fuck out of my head
 So you can stay with me just for tonight, but I have got all of these hang-ups
 And I can't fix them
 I'm sorry I made it your problem
 Can I tell you all my secrets
 I am drowning myself
 Beneath the waves of this turbulent self-pity
 Oh, and it keeps me sea sick
 It keeps me heartsick
 It beats me black and blue until my face will match the colors of the Atlantic
 She says I've got so much left waiting above the waves
 But the only thing that keeps me grounded, keeps me sane
 Is the tug of my guitar strings
 I don't think that I was ever meant to stick around for long
 I'll burn out so brightly you'll be seeing stars when I am finally gone
 You might think you're patient
 You might think you're kind
 I will wear you down
 And you will leave me to die