A Secret

Last time I was here
 Changing the subject
 Just look at the lawn
 You said "It shouldn't be so green in December,
 Do you think we should worry?"
 It's been a long time
 Since we argued
 And that argument ended
 You walk in and out of pain like a tide
 How did you want me to look?
 Even older? Even older?
 How did you want me to look?
 Even older? Even older?
 Don't tell me where you've been, okay
 But of course I'll visit when I can
 Of course you'll visit when you can
 Of course I'll visit when I can
 Of course I'll visit when I can
 And I'm not making a fuss
 I'm not making a fuss
 Most of this isn't even a secret
 Impossible questions like
 How can you still talk to them?
 How can you still talk to them
 When that long shadow stretches from their little house
 All the way to the top of your mountain?
 But of course you'll visit when you can
 Of course you'll visit when you can
 But of course you'll visit when you can
 Of course you'll visit when you can
 And when I said justice
 It just isn't what I meant at all
 When I said justice
 It just isn't what I meant at all
 I dare not speak for you
 But I look forward to
 Remembering him as a bad man
 And that's it
 Most of this isn't a secret
 Most of this isn't a secret
 Most of this isn't a secret