Darling Anonymity

I no longer know your name
 But I can't forget every single time you came around
 Every time you came around for me
 You came down on me so hard
 I will never be the same
 April spits a frigid flame
 Of boiling memory
 The neighborhood for me
 Is black and perfuming
 Lilacs fracturing in the yard
 Now you don't mean shit to me
 It isn't how it should be
 Darling
 But I didn't refuse you
 No, I didn't choose to
 Stick my nose in every single opening that's powdering
 But the place where the ice glare
 Tasted the sharp air
 Of the open water on the lake
 As it breaks
 Oh the spring night
 Oh the sting might wake me up to see
 Your initials on the sacrificial version
 Of me
 Darling anonymity
 You're planning alarming schemes
 It's startling when you teethe on the cartilage
 Of my ear and knee
 What's the last thing that you said?
 Will somebody find you dead
 Inside my TV screen?
 Grassier and green
 The smell of gasoline
 The summer's perfume keen
 And so dense
 I am always panting for
 The smell decanting on your floor
 The kidney and the spleen
 The bladder filtered clean
 The purity I mean
 The prettiness
 The preen
 You, in a sense
 Now you don't mean shit to me
 It isn't how it should be
 Darling
 But I didn't refuse you
 No, I didn't choose to
 Stick my nose in every single opening that's blossoming
 But that place where the ice glare
 Tasted the sharp air
 Of the open water on the lake
 As it breaks
 Oh the spring night
 Oh the sting might wake me up to see
 Your initials on the sacrificial version
 Of me
 Darling anonymity
 You're planning alarming schemes
 It's startling when you teethe on the cartilage
 Of my ear and knee
 It's harming the summer's I have left
 It's squirming
 It's making such a mess
 My heart is at the broken Dairy Queen
 Where our kiss is melting with the rest