The Best Way to End a Marriage Is to Get Kidnapped for 15 Years

If you had told me how long it would be
 Would it have been any easier
 I've spent years
 Falling asleep to chemicals
 And dissonant frequencies
 Locked in a room with no windows
 Dancing with my shadows
 Imprinting my retina with the shit on the screen
 Isolated without human interaction
 Jacking off to flashing lights
 I dug my way out of over a decade
 One day at a time
 Caught by my own reflection
 I've become the beast that I once sought to destroy
 My lips belong to an old boy
 He smiles and says to me
 "Laugh and world laughs with you
 Weep and you weep alone"
 It begs the question
 Even if I'm no better than a beast
 Don't I deserve to live?
 Even though I'm worse than a beast
 Don't I deserve to live?
 I'll cut my fucking tongue off
 I'll be your fucking dog
 I'll never speak again
 I'll never speak again
 No matter the weight
 In water
 It sinks the same
 No matter the wait
 In water it sinks the same
 Revenge is good for your health
 But the pain will find you again
 Revenge is good for your health
 But the pain will find you again
 Revenge is good for your health
 But the pain will find you again