A Lesson in Shapeshifting

I never knew you like I thought I did
 21 years with no goodbyes oh oh
 And I've tried oh I've tried
 But I can't move on
 I can't move on
 Just keep telling myself I'll be fine
 But I'm not fine
 Cause you pulled the trigger tight
 As the autumn leaves
 Rained down like fireworks
 And the sky lit up for one last time
 One last time
 And all of the crowd stood staring
 As sulfur silence filled the stratosphere
 And they packed their things and headed home
 But I stood alone
 I stood alone
 You held that pain just like a hand grenade
 With the pin lying at your feet
 Closed your eyes and counted down
 You counted down
 And all of the sirens sang their serenade
 All the way down Alamo street
 But you couldn't hear a sound
 No one was around
 Wish I were around
 We're all scared to death of dying
 We're all scared to death of dying
 We're all scared to death of dying
 We're all scared to death of dying
 We're all scared to death of dying
 We're all scared to death of dying
 We're all scared to death of dying
 We're all scared to death of dying
 Here alone