mess it up

Okay it's 5:30 a.m
 Alarm tellin' me to get up make friends
 My mom tellin' me to not trust satan
 He'll give you the world, but you'll still feel vacant
 Say I'm strong, but I lied 'cause I still feel weak
 Play pretend with my eyes 'cause I cannot speak
 Who am I to disguise hide my feelings deep, deep, deep
 What if I lose it all?
 Tryna figure out where I'm 'spose to be
 What if I chose to fall?
 Will it mess your path and Your plans for me 'cause
 What's this lil life without problems
 I keep it going and forget that I got 'em
 It's just me alone I don't know who else could solve 'em
 It feels like things changed just like the leaves in the autumn
 I'm afraid to mess it up
 Waste it all and lose your trust
 How I fall away so many times, but you still call me son
 Put my faith up in the one
 Know the enemy will come
 But this word my loaded, uh
 But this word my loaded gun, gun, gun
 'Cause I don't wanna mess it up
 My chains say you're not gettin' up
 The weight just makes me throw my love away, away, away
 The winds and waves may come, but I know the one who holds the sea
 Sometimes it's so hard to trust remind myself to believe
 Spirit come on down I need your love heart on my sleeve
 Tell myself I'm fine so I just put this song on repeat
 What if I lose it all?
 Tryna figure out where I'm 'spose to be
 What if I chose to fall?
 Will it mess Your path and Your plans for me 'cause
 What's this lil life without problems
 I keep it going and forget that I got 'em
 It's just me alone I don't know who else could solve 'em
 It feels like things changed just like the leaves in the autumn
 I'm afraid to mess it up
 Waste it all and lose your trust
 How I fall away so many times, but you still call me son
 Put my faith up in the One
 Know the enemy will come
 But this word my loaded, uh
 But this word my loaded gun, gun, gun