To the Sun

It was the timing and the bags under my eyes
 It was the look on your face when you said I look tired
 I'd rather watch you turn away
 'Cause you don't look at me the same anymore
 And I don't blame you for a second
 What happened to us?
 What happened to me?
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 I used to run to feel the air rushing through my lungs
 Without a purpose or need or a care and a back to the sun
 Now it's just the getaway in a maze that I can't escape
 Oh, how I would give anything
 For a chance to catch my breath
 Oh, how I would give anything
 For you to speak in words I understand
 And now my feet are sinking into my regrets like concrete
 And now my feet are sinking into my regrets like concrete
 And now my feet are sinking into my regrets like concrete
 And now my feet are sinking into my regrets like concrete
 Oh, if we're made in His reflection, I'm curious
 Oh, I would give anything to recreate
 How our dysfunction used to function so beautifully
 I used to run, I felt the air in my lungs
 Without a purpose or need or a care and a back to the sun
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 So if we're made in His reflection, I'm curious
 Is this all there is?
 Just failing expectations
 Crumbling foundations
 Nothing more, nothing less
 And the burn in the back of your throat
 No, it never goes away
 You just come to grips
 And make room for it
 Until you don't live, you just cope
 And as much as we say, "Don't look back"
 We always do, because we're human
 God knows I'm human
 I'm a liar and I, I'm a fake
 I am I, and I wish I wasn't
 I keep trying to fight and trying to run
 But I hate myself for changing every step of the way
 And I can't help thinking
 That if we're made in His reflection
 I'm curious
 I'm curious
 Did God drink himself to sleep the night he created me?