Reverend

Couple beers with the reverend,
 Am I safe from the night?
 More money to the system,
 Am I free from the fight?
 I left myself behind in my home town,
 Went looking for a new place, you won't find me around.
 I made peace with my country,
 Though I never could believe,
 Somebody else's struggle
 Is the reason that I flee
 There's none that miss me, they never thought I'd go.
 So many things about me, nobody seems to know.
 Can you carry more,
 If you leave me back?
 What's left to take?
 Who's lives come last?
 I can find fewer reasons,
 Against the need to run,
 Than my hands to bear a burden,
 A weight I can't overcome.
 There are reasons I worry, there are answers I fear.
 Is there love enough to save us? Will it find us out here?
 I counted my fortunes,
 With time left to spare.
 My doubts all outnumbered,
 Regardless of what's fair.
 Need to find a way to carry myself through the day.
 Let grief lie behind me and learn to look away.