Retreat

Again, I'm thinking too far ahead
 But I don't know what comes and goes
 I'm vain if I don't believe I can
 See this through, I'm short on fuel
 I lie thinking I could die
 Forgetting all about how
 We have come this far
 At night
 My mind is colour-blind
 It brushes the light off me
 I'm not sure what it means, yeah
 Did you already know what to do?
 Time holds on better to you
 I sleep to feel at home again
 I miss my love for everything
 Now I
 Start to think I might
 Give in to my near sight
 Fall back with the morning light
 I still
 Believe that this ain't real
 Until I can retreat
 Release and make my peace, yeah
 If I stop being this, can I still be me?
 If I go for an exit, will it lead me here?
 As I look forward to my grief
 I recognize my saviour in the face of failure
 I knew much more than all that noise