Haze (HVN)

Day dreamin to lucy land
 Lucidly scramblin wakin' myself up
 Coughing fits & cancer sticks again
 Bet I'm back on my bullshit my friend
 I know you expected nothing less
 But i can't make do and mend
 Remember when I wasn't so fixated with worry or tracking my loss in dividends?
 Yea I can sport you a smile but i feel deep down it's all pretend
 And now I fear the end
 Cuz maybe imma end
 Up alone somewhere for mental care in an institution
 All these thoughts that run through my brain
 I can not contain em
 Im going insane
 All of this fear that rots at my brain
 Fuckin' me up, burnin' me down, lead me astray
 All these thoughts that run through my brain
 I can not contain em
 I'm going insane
 All of this fear that rots at my brain
 Fuckin' me up, burnin me down, lead me astray
 I've been in a daze for days
 Stuck in a haze as I age
 My record skips
 I'll blaze it away in haste just so that i can press play
 This wave that im stuck on
 Oh where did I go wrong?
 I don't belong
 Think it won't be long
 Im already singin my swan song
 Each time the flashbacks occur
 They lash back worse
 And I know these just words
 But the panic'll set in before I finish the verse
 I Cant Catch My Breath
 In over my head
 Sink in my bed with the feeling of dread
 Contemplating takin my medication
 Just dead instead, what a thought. Now I'm pacing
 Back and Forth
 Like a clock on the wall
 As the the hour hand falls
 And I sweat in withdrawal
 I'm growing impatient of waiting for the end I'm creating
 Drowing
 I forgot how to tread
 Drowning
 I'm sinking in my head
 Drowing
 I forgot how to tread
 Drowning
 It's consuming me and soon I'll be dead