Deeper Down

An unfortunate journey
 Through a bleak sea of loneliness
 I carved through the waves of grief
 In a black vastness of self doubt
 I have never felt so alone
 So pitiful and wretched and low
 I'm tried by a terrible wind
 The misery and the pains blow
 Fill my vast sails of ruin
 Steer me towards the bleak end
 A horizon of purples and reds
 The still waters of my welcome end
 The clouds of grey come overhead
 A storm will hunt me down
 And rip the guts out of my body
 Then I would surely drown
 The unforgiving wind searches
 And lashes me like a whip
 The self-pity overwhelms me
 My heart sinks like a ship
 Thrashing out at torment and pain
 The maddened sea engulfs me
 I let myself be swallowed up
 The magnificent weight upon me
 Deeper I go, deeper down
 Didn't think it could get any blacker
 The cold bites, the pressure builds
 I think I no longer matter
 Can't tell if my eyes are open or closed
 The grieving waters swallow
 The pain I'm in through my life of sin
 The Devil will doubtless follow
 When lovers die, friendships fade
 When kin all lie forgotten
 The gates of agony spew forth
 Your memories, stinking and rotten
 So deep now, I feel so numb
 I'm ravaged by utter loss
 The guilt, the grief, the astounding pain
 My body, they all will wash
 I hope I ne'er return to life
 Oh, Christ, just let me go
 Let death devour my simple soul
 Lets my misery grow