Why Am I Still Here

I'm a fuck up
 I'm a loser
 I'm my own personal mental abuser
 My head fucking hurts, hope it's a tumor
 If it is, then I just might die sooner
 You say "Boy don't talk like that"
 I say "Or a heart attack"
 You say "What the fuck you tryna do?"
 I say "I'm not doing anything, got nothing left to prove"
 I don't know why I'm still here
 And I don't know why you still care
 I don't know why I'm still here
 Or why you care
 Why do you care?
 I don't know why I'm still here
 And I don't know why you still care
 I don't know why I'm still here
 Or why you care
 Why do you care?
 I don't wanna be here but I'm too afraid to die
 Can't say I haven't thought about giving it a try
 I tell people I'm happy but that's a fucking lie
 I guess I'm just afraid to tell the ones I love goodbye
 I look at the stars in the sky
 And I just want them to shine some light on me
 I see clouds suspended in the sky
 And I just want them to float away with me
 I look at the stars in the sky
 And I just want them to shine some light on me
 I see clouds suspended in the sky
 And I just want them to float away with me