If I Stare

My eyes are fixed on what doesn't exist
 Layers of longing that keep me consistently
 Bending my neck by the weight of the thoughts in my head
 If you'd have listened, well, maybe you'd have heard what I said
 That I'm afraid to die
 Maybe I'd feel more alive
 If I stared straight in the eyes of time and screamed
 You are mine
 Fake it until I feel real
 Surrendering to how you feel
 I've been cast into the past
 Now I can't find my way back
 My eyes are fixed on what doesn't exist
 Or maybe it does but my mind misinterprets it
 I'm bending my neck by the weight of the thoughts in my head
 If you'd have listened, well, maybe you'd have heard what I said
 That I'm afraid to die
 Maybe I'd feel more alive
 If I stared straight in the eyes of time and screamed
 You are mine
 Fake it until I feel real
 Surrendering to how you feel
 I've been cast into the past
 Now I can't find my way back
 (Aaaahs)
 And I drift in the midst of a memory
 A foggy version of this reality
 And there are parts of me that love this life
 Yet, I'm on the verge of tears and I don't know why
 (whistling)
 Lie-die-di-die, Lie-die-di-die
 Lie-die-di-die, Lie-die-di-die
 Lie-die-di-die, Lie-die-di-die
 Lie-die-di-die, Lie-die-di-die
 (Aaahs)