Father's Day

Life is a wheel and in this circle
 When I was young with a pad and a pencil
 I grew and drew you as the example of the evil that men do
 Said to your only sun he wouldn't be shit
 And I've spent most of my life really believing that shit
 Now I wonder how I could've been deceived that quick
 Cause up until that point you ain't teach me shit
 I guess you ain't consider raising up a half a nigger
 Unable to relate to the world at odds with yah
 Had to rip your face out a couple of family pictures
 Moms doing alright you know she ain't bitter
 She even told me to take the time to sit and build with yah
 But it's been a minute pops the fuck been up with yah?
 Life is a wheel and in this circle
 Like father like sun same temper and all
 Similar downfalls drowned out in alcohol
 Round the time I got involved with the yes yes y'all
 I caught a vision and listened to the Adhans call
 Of course I wanted to know what you thought of it all
 But instead of healing wounds you chose to throw me salt
 Which brought our interactions to immediate halt
 I remember hitting heavy bags waiting to square off
 Wondering the thought that brought y'all to pair off
 Were you truly loves deepest believer
 Or were you just passed down the lust of the master and overseer
 That left you struck with a severe case of jungle fever
 See the illest thing that these eyes done seen
 Was the klan raping a sister in your porn magazine
 That's some impossible shit to wipe clean
 Like I was just the mistake of your wildest wet dream
 Seemed at some points you wasn't willing to deal
 Treated like the black sheep of your family for real
 Like race wasn't an issue until truth was revealed
 And I was accused of taking shit I wouldn't have to steal
 That's some ill shit to have on your mind at 9
 Kind of hard to be color blind when I'm hated for mine
 But all of that never seemed to tarnish my shine
 Till shorty said she was pregnant and swore it was mine
 But that marriage ended in miscarriage
 More weight for the scales that tipped me to savage
 Me and Moms started going at it over everything
 Disrespecting her home
 Me thinking I'm grown
 Like why bother I could father myself on my own
 It's against the laws of nature but through time it's shown
 No matter how wise or concrete my mother was planned
 No woman by herself should have to raise no man
 Especially 1 driven with a heart full of hate
 All the fighting used to make her say she saw you in my face
 So I'm guessing its fate that brought me here to take care of yah
 Life in Black & White gotta be some grey area
 Your sickness impairing yah
 Barely able to walk on your own and just think I used to be scared of yah
 But that's what makes all of this that much harder
 Cause Allah always said honor thy Mother and Father
 Life is a wheel and in this circle