Blind By Choice

I wonder what I said to you
 It seems I'm always so upset and cruel
 So much ire
 For a good heart to acquire in a life
 The regret, the distress
 How muh longer till I die?
 An by the time I'm back again
 What's left has made me
 Different in a way
 The innocence escaped
 An by the time I'm back again
 Detached from all the anger that remains
 Nothing left to pray for
 Was it not enough
 To devour your hope
 I'll wait until It's dark
 To meld with the noise
 I'll drown unless my trust returns
 The surface scratched
 Resulting blurred
 I've been loved
 Form the presences above
 Every time
 But this gift comes with a cost, leaves me crushed
 When I lie
 An by the time I'm back again
 What's left has made me
 Different in a way
 But I'll be ok
 An by the time I'm back again
 Detached from all the anger that remains
 Nothing left to say anymore
 Was it not enough
 To devour your hope
 I'll wait until It's dark
 To meld with the noise