Smaller

It's a tired fascination with everything I'm not and
 Wasting nights wondering, trying to figure out, oh
 Maybe if I'm quiet, maybe if I'm lighter, maybe I'll be something
 Someone you would like
 If I'm smaller and if I'm different just a little less
 Would you love me?
 If I wasn't this with some bigger lips and some smaller hips
 Would you love me?
 It's an overdone obsession with chasing what I'm not and
 Something I've been hiding
 Space I'm taking up and slouching in my shoulders and
 Curving in my back afraid that all this space I'm in Is just too much to have
 If I'm smaller and if I'm different just a little less
 Would you love me?
 If I wasn't this with some bigger lips and some smaller hips
 Would you love me?
 And I can't change what just stays the same
 So I keep trying to love me how I'm made
 I know I'm hating on my mother, I'm disrespecting dad by
 Spending nights trying to change the way I am
 I'm tearing at my structure, pulling at my skin
 Just wishing I was smaller and different
 And I'm spitting on the people who love me just like this
 Who don't wish that I was smaller or less of anything
 And I'm yelling in my silence, so make the voices stop
 Let me sleep in quiet, not thinking that I ought to be
 Smaller and different, Just a little less
 So you can love me
 With none of this and some bigger lips and some smaller hips
 So you can love me
 And I can't change what just stays the same
 But I keep trying to love me how I'm made
 How I'm made
 How I'm made
 How I'm made
 If I'm smaller and if I'm different just a little less
 Would you love me?
 If I wasn't this with some bigger lips and some smaller hips
 Would you love me?