My First Day

Sometimes I write about something, that like something I went through
 Or something my people went through
 And I felt like they needed some motivational shit
 And it usually ends up going something like this...
 My first day, without you in my life
 Things felt strange, a bit deranged
 Even so, I hope you're doin okay
 Take it slow, you just never know... (just never know, oh!)
 Yo, you just never know... nooo (just never know, oh!)
 You just never know... nooo (just never know, oh!)
 My systems caught in conniption, stomach in knots
 Feedin for my medicine, overcoming addiction
 The first step is quittin, nah the first steps admittin
 I got a problem, I need help, this is something I can't beat myself
 I almost felt like I can't be cured
 Rehab won't take me cuz I ain't insured
 Layin in the bath tub, shakin like a new born
 Searchin for the courage it'll take for me to move on
 I've been livin life like this way too long
 Beggin God please, bring me home
 I stopped before, three or four days
 Always end up back in the same place
 People call me a junkie, dope fiend
 How they gonna judge me, they don't even know me
 Lights off, wanna be left alone, I'm tryin to enjoy the methodone
 Put a Jimi Hendrix record on, and excuse me while I kiss the sky
 Dosed off, woke up, sick to my stomach, ran to the bathroom
 Started to vomit, the methodone wore off and the withdrawal started
 That first day was the hardest...
 My first day, without you in my life
 Things felt strange, a bit deranged
 Even so, I hope you're doin okay
 Take it slow, you just never know... (just never know, oh!)
 Yo, you just never know... nooo (just never know, oh!)
 Yo, you just never know... nooo (just never know, oh!)
 Stayed strong, endured the rough weather
 I ain't fully recovered but I'm doin much better
 I can keep my food down to shakes and calms
 They lowerin the doses of methodone
 I eat V's and blow lots of dro
 It's like chewin gum when you're tryin not to smoke
 Keep my mind occupied, calm my nerves
 It's not the same high, deep inside I...
 Just want one more but I can't turn back this week for it
 But I done made it, almost a month
 With just a couple of V's and I blew some blunts
 But that weed and gonna make me OD
 That other shit was gonna kill me
 Six weeks, and everything seem so clear
 Before I knew it, time flew and I was clean for a year
 Can't believe something started off socially
 Something I almost allowed to take over me
 Days went by and it was sixteen months
 And I swear to God I didn't fall off once
 I, feel like a brand new guy and I'm definetly livin a brand new life
 Some days I still resist the thirst but none's worst than the first (believe that)
 My first day, without you in my life
 Things felt strange, a bit deranged
 Even so, I hope you're doin okay
 Take it slow, you just never know... (just never know, oh!)
 Yo, you just never know... nooo (just never know, oh!)
 Yo, you just never know... nooo (just never know, oh!)
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 Two years and I ain't touched it
 Got a lot done, I been so productive
 Rebuilt, I was so constructive
 Can't believe I was so self destructive
 Got a good job and I make big bucks
 Went to the lot and got a new pick up
 Got a brand new crib and a brand new kid
 I think anybody can quit if I did
 If you wanna quit, get up and go get the shit
 Walk straight to the toilet, drop it, flush it, fuck it, fight it
 Just resist it and if this helps then just keep listenin
 When you start slippin I'll send you another one
 Sonny, wasup?, we just saved another one
 I know it's so hard like there's no God
 But through him you're able to go so far
 Hey, I don't wanna sound corny
 I'm just like you either hungry or horny
 Seems as though we get hooked so easily
 Quitting becomes an impossibility
 I ain't sayin treat your body like a church
 Just don't let dope put your body in a hearse
 The streets inside you, you just gotta search
 And know that no day be harder than the first
 My first day, without you in my life
 Things felt strange, a bit deranged
 Even so, I hope you're doin okay
 Take it slow, you just never know... (just never know, oh!)
 Yo, you just never know... nooo (just never know, oh!)
 Yo, you just never know... nooo (just never know, oh!)
 Yo, all my people, goin through they thing
 Whatever they thing may be
 Just know, God got his hands on you
 And he'll grant you the serenity
 To change the things you can't
 And you can change that, aight
 Hold me down and I'ma hold you down... one