procaine

Break me apart, I'll probably like it anyways
 Dirt in my heart, was the cause of the heavy weight
 Living ain't smart, but it's better than eternal pain
 With the way that I'm feeling right now, there'd be no way
 Hot water pours down my head like it's procaine
 I just dust off the rust, while they're still all joking
 You hope that they notice, it's hopeless, you know it
 I've lost grasp, will I get it back?
 My only consolations momentary to my past
 I reach out, both my arms, but the sky won't do it back
 let it go, lay to waste, I may not be here tomorrow
 Every day feels delayed, bitch, I feed off of the sorrow
 Shits not a movie, this my real life man my old girl is a groupie
 They wonder if I'm okay, I don't know I say it loosely
 I just ran out of Percs, need some more before I'm moody
 They can kill me that's the beauty
 Sober days, no cannot relate
 Ex mad, yeah, get out my face
 Can't talk she busy at raves
 Laced pills, yeah, they are my favs
 Death soon, oh, this is a race
 Not worth the stress, she in love with the chase
 In an out, I ain't leavin' a trace
 Crackin' cards, but beatin' my case
 Don't wanna talk about it
 Don't wanna think about it
 Now you stalkin' on my page, I know you read about it
 She still playin' all my songs, she think she slick about it
 And I'm never goin' rehab makin' sure about it
 Hot water pours down my head like it's procaine
 I just dust off the rust, while they're still all joking
 You hope that they notice, it's hopeless, you know it
 I've lost grasp, will I get it back?
 The tide casts I can feel you tugging on my heart
 It's getting colder, hold her
 It was a set up from the start
 Hold it still, steady pace, but it never works out
 My wrists break from the rain as I fall to the ground
 I've been up for two whole days
 I can't sleep blow out my brain
 Xanny bars help numb the pain
 Need your love right in my veins