You Completely Destroy Me

You completely destroy me
 You destroyed me like I never knew you could
 I'm not over you and I never will be
 The thing about love is that simple
 Things like her lips and her eyes break my heart
 They're not mine and I dont know who's they'll be
 Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart
 I used to find safety in her smile
 I used to feel warmth in the look on her face
 I've been left an empy shell to whither it fade away
 I used to think of all the things that we'd be
 Now I only think of all the things that we never really were
 I used to call you mine but now you just don't know
 What am I left to do but stand here in the cold
 All I've got left are some photos
 Of you and your voice stuck in my head
 Saying how you'd be there always and forever until the very end
 You were everything to me, and you always will be
 Deep in my heart that aches for the sound of your voice
 But no longer will I have the choice
 I'm sorry for anything that I've done
 For the person I've become that you learned to love
 But then turned your back like a setting sun
 If I hurt you I pray that you forgive me
 I mean all the words that I say please belive me
 And see me as the person you always knew I was
 I've never been perfect, not in a single way
 And that day that you saved me is when I fell from grace
 I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away
 So now I'm left alone
 To live this life all on my own
 And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close
 And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most
 I've always been too scared to be properly diagnosed
 Because you were my pill but now you're nothing but a ghost
 And I still have your pictures and that letter that you wrote
 Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go
 And you saved me from myself and that's something I hope you know
 But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low
 And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe
 Because you were the one that gave me everything I need
 But now the pain won't subside, I just can't belive you chose to leave
 You were the reason for living, how could you so such a heinous thing
 I was like a boat that got carried out to sea
 And i trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me
 You protected me from the storm, and gave me a chance at life
 And I loved the way you cared and asked if I was alright
 But something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor
 You no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core
 And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight
 Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side
 And all the things that people said,
 I guess this whole time they were right
 Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright
 But I hope you're happy
 I hope you're doing fine
 I love you still today
 Just like you were still mine
 I still love the way you laughed
 And the things you said to me
 You'll never leave my heart
 Nor my memory
 I just wish I could understand
 Why you chose to leave
 I can't do this on my own
 I need you here with me
 But you've turned into a ghost
 And you're nowhere to be seen
 And I can't hear your voice
 I won't see your message on the screen
 We won't have a family
 We won't have a house
 We won't raise our kids
 You won't be my spouse
 We won't grow old together
 Like we always planned
 You disappeared forever
 And alone here shall I stand