Terrible 22's

I recite the lies
 To keep them in my head
 She's standing next to me
 Wishing I was dead
 But she can't understand
 What she meant
 The thoughts you have to choose
 The synchromatic blues
 The people you adore in your terrible 22s
 The ones she calls her friends
 And she says
 I'm interested at the thought of you
 Do what you have to do
 To make amends
 
 Calling me back home in the afternoon
 What is trust to you?
 I can't comprehend
 To pull me closer and drag me under
 With one last breath
 With all the power that you have over
 My darling what did you expect?
 Is it the drugs kicking in are you there my love?
 I can hear you round the corner
 But I cannot lose you no more
 The uncertainty when it's hard to breathe
 And I can't stay long
 And she's speaking to the words unsaid
 The loneliness
 When it makes it harder to stand
 Trust me, the air that I breathe ain't enough
 And I have second thoughts
 And though they seem adverse
 She's screaming when it's better
 'Cause when it's better is when it's worse
 Like when speaking out of turn
 In false terms
 And so the night it haunts
 The memories lay there lost
 And so I start to wonder
 But I'm wondering at a cost
 Hoping something stays forgot
 As in what?
 I pull her closer and drag her under, the weight on top
 With all the power I now have over
 My darling I will never stop
 How are the drugs kicking in? Can you my take my love?
 I can hear you round the corner
 But I cannot lose you no more
 The uncertainty when it's hard to breathe
 And I can't stay long
 And she's speaking to the words unsaid
 The loneliness
 When it makes it harder to stand
 Trust me, the air that I breathe ain't enough
 I know it's the end but is this just the
 Feeling of longing I get when I'm feeling the same?
 I'm stuck in my ways but inside there is
 Something that I want to feel when I finally change
 I know there's nothing left to say
 Are the drugs kicking in are you
 There my love? (Are you there my love?)
 I can hear you round the corner
 But I cannot lose you no more
 The uncertainty when it's hard to breathe (Are you there my love?)
 And I can't stay long
 And she's speaking to the words unsaid
 The loneliness
 When it makes it harder to stand
 Trust me, the air that I breathe ain't enough
 The air that I breathe ain't enough