A Song for Halfpint to Suck My Balls To

No score, I shut it all out
 Telling stories that I shouldn't tell
 It's a secret, it's a secret
 Tried to get away but that didn't help
 I told a lie to myself and now I believe it, I believe it
 And while I'm near believing, everyone is leaving
 I don't have any options anymore
 I don't wanna get up off the floor
 Don't know what I'm doing this for
 I don't wanna open that door
 It's all so fucking out of hand
 Too stupid to ever understand
 Let's go listen to some records in the van
 May be up, but I've got a plan
 It's a secret
 No score, can't take anymore
 Heartbreak, mistakes, question and ever confusion
 Shut down, shut up, shut out, what's this all about
 Accusing them all of collision
 It's a fucking illusion
 I don't have any options anymore
 I don't wanna get up off the floor
 Don't know what I'm doing this for
 Too fucked up to open that door
 It's all so fucking out of hand
 Too stupid to ever understand
 Let's go listen to some records in the van
 Let's get the fuck out, I've got a plan
 It's a secret