Satellite

We learned to stop staring at the floor
 We learned to stop hoping it would offer us our guidance anymore
 There was a turn before you froze
 We all knew it was something when
 Everyone was backing up
 (I know it won't matter, I won't keep bringing it up)
 So we'll sit in silence once more
 So we offered silent answers
 (open so, as you're breaking up)
 Kept to myself and you kept to yourself
 And we hoped one another could not keep it up
 Moving across the hall
 I said I'd call
 There was no answer
 There was no reason
 Wandered off from the back yard
 There were no answers to anything we called
 I waited for you before we went in
 And you said
 Slept at your desk and you slept in your closet
 You got rid of everything but it wasn't working
 Fled into turning to seek rolling over
 There's no reason to think that anything was happening
 But it still feels like we're falling forever
 And even in dreams
 There're still some things that we can't make up
 Said it really happens if you don't wake up
 Thought if you concentrated hard enough you could control
 The governing circumstances keeping you grounded
 You tried but you couldn't control anything
 And there's no reason we set there
 On the grass that never grew
 Feigning interest in alien things
 So at least we had something to say
 Answering between clarity
 So at least we had some place to stray
 Wait on headlights when you're coming over
 Still worried it won't go away
 And all we had as we waited there
 Was waiting there
 Promise me you'll never bother
 Asking me what I'm thinking when you know
 You know there's nothing to say
 You'll know what it is anyway
 Entirely something else than when you're alone
 Maybe it was something we didn't want to know
 Maybe it earned its place hidden under us all
 All the time trying to give meaning undue
 All the time on each other neither one of us knew
 Feels like we've been falling forever like a satellite
 Set floating there in orthogonal orbit
 Learned to stop commiserating
 Learned to stop equivocating
 Learned to rely on our relying on anaphora
 With "haiku-like imagination"
 Almost missed the view from the window
 Woke up at midnight, headlights rolling over
 Said there was something so important that it couldn't wait
 Said you were watching but you couldn't shoulder it now
 We learned to stop staring at the door
 We learned to stop wondering if we could still escape it anymore
 Everyone saw, I know, I know
 The blank frames on your book shelf
 Everyone felt better then
 (I won't, I won't)
 There was a place we both said we'd meet if we fall too far apart
 So we sit still staring at the floor
 So we sit still hoping that we'll actually do what we learned we should do
 And that either of us will find someplace to start