A Serious House On Serious Earth

You had a heart of gold
 I know because I fucking sold it
 And truth be told
 I couldn't even say what I did with the money
 Heads are like that
 At least for me when I try to think back
 This is where I'd ordinarily
 Check the room for spatial distortion
 Stare at the moon and cherish the feeling
 Eat my words, and choke on the meanings
 Stoke the flames, and burn like I mean it
 This is where we lost our memories
 This is where I long to be
 Here I am
 The walking sum of your disappointments
 I made peace with that
 When I let all the feeling out
 I can do that much, but I can't stop the bleeding
 Speak in codes
 Spin the wheels 'til we bend the spokes
 Shake up these tired bones
 Make a point, drive it home
 You're cool as a heart attack
 I can't move, so I can't relax
 Some things, you can't take back
 Not now, not fucking ever
 I've got a heavy soul
 Right now, it's like a fucking boulder
 And all I know
 There's not too much more I can shoulder
 Fill my lungs
 And cough 'til I'm heaving
 Spill my guts
 And just fucking leave them
 Here I am
 The walking sum of your disappointments
 I made peace with that
 When I let all the feeling out
 I can do that much, but I can't stop the bleeding
 Speak in codes
 I'll spin the wheels 'til we bend the spokes
 Shake up these tired bones
 I'll make a point, and drive it home
 You're cool as a heart attack
 I can't move, so I can't relax
 Some things, you can't take back
 Not now, not fucking ever