Lost

Why do I push you away?
 Why do I tell you to leave me alone
 Like I've never got something to say?
 Why does this feel like I'm lying
 I'm tired of smiling like I've been okay
 I'm praying, I'm crying
 I look up I'm thinking how do you hear what I'm saying
 I'm trying to be a better person, but it's killing me inside
 I can't seem to understand why I never trust anybody I
 I feel like your never there, or maybe I never cared
 Maybe I'm full of pride and when you called I couldn't hear
 I need you right now I do
 I need you right now I do
 I need you right now I do
 I'm so lost without you
 I need you what can I say
 I need you what I can say
 I need you what I can say
 I'm so lost without you
 'Cause this world around me is falling
 And it feels like I'm going to break
 It feels like I'm losing myself in this darkness
 Could you show me the way?
 I hope success doesn't change me, like it does usually
 Look in the mirror like what did you do to me?
 Old feelings that are creeping in
 Got me wondering what is new to me
 Forgive me for my faults
 Mistakes that are made that are hurting
 But you know who I am and you died on a cross
 You knew I wasn't perfect
 Yeah, my faith in you was certain
 But I'm bitter inside of a wilderness
 Wake up at six in the morning
 I wonder when I'll be tired a little less
 Am I selfish for wanting more?
 Inside of a home that we can't afford
 My transmission breaking down
 Around three-thousand dollars aside the door
 See when you run out of hope, you run into faith
 I hear your voice so I'm about to break
 I made a lot of bad decisions in my life
 I never seem to get it straight
 Caring less for people that I cared about
 I can feel my heart turning hollow
 Don't you promise me forever
 When you can't even make it until tomorrow
 Trust issues, yeah I got plenty
 Stories and scars, I got many
 Lust all around me, I'm weak and you know it
 I wonder if I'll ever be ready
 To be the person that I know I can be
 I need you to show me the way
 I'm stubborn, I'm bitter, I'm prideful
 I know what I need you what can I say?
 I need you right now I do
 I need you right now I do
 I need you right now I do
 I'm so lost without you
 I need you what can I say
 I need you what I can say
 I need you what I can say
 I'm so lost without you
 'Cause this world around me is falling
 And it feels like I'm going to break
 It feels like I'm losing myself in this darkness
 Could you show me the way?