I'm Alive

It's been a long time since I watched these lights alone
 I look around my life tonight and you are gone
 I might have done something to keep you if I'd known
 How unhappy you had become
 While I was dreaming of you
 With my heart in your hands
 And I was following though
 With my beautiful plans
 Yeah now I'm rolling down this canyon drive
 With your laughter in my head
 I'm gonna have to block it out somehow to survive
 'Cause those dreams are dead and I'm alive
 I want to go where I will never hear your name
 I want to lose my sorrow and be free again
 And I know I've been insane
 When I think of places I could have been
 But I was dreaming of you
 With my heart in your hands
 And I was following through
 With my beautiful plans
 Standing here by the highway side
 Watching these trucks blow by
 Inches from my face
 Yeah thinking 'bout the time I've wasted
 And the pleasure we once tasted
 Looking up and down this road
 I've been here before
 Can't be here no more
 Yeah now I'm rolling down California five
 With your laughter in my head
 I'm gonna have to block it out somehow to survive
 'Cause those dreams are dead, I'm alive
 Yeah baby I'm alive, yeah I'm alive
 Hey look at the way I believed in you and loved you all these years
 Now you can fill a swimming pool with all my salty tears
 If you'd have told me what was in your heart
 Instead of all your lies and I thought that it would kill me
 But I'm alive, yeah I'm alive, yeah I'm alive, yeah I'm alive