SONIA

Once upon a time, little girl on the grind
 Met a boy, he was nice at the time
 Weeks from the days, plans, they were made
 Soon, you could call them an item
 Funny how a title makes them think they own you
 Tellin' you how to dress and who to talk to
 Fella, please, don't nobody ask you
 My great, great granny was born a slave
 She found liberation before the grave
 Who you tellin' how to behave?
 Ooh, I'm trying to forgive, but can't forget
 It was bad, it was bad
 It was bad, it was bad
 It was the crying that was bad (It was the crying that was)
 It was the lying that was bad (It was the lying that was)
 It was the blaming that was bad (It was the blaming that was)
 The self-hating that was bad (The self-hating that was)
 It was the waiting that was bad (It was the waiting that was)
 It was the doubting that was bad (It was the doubting that was)
 It was the screaming that was bad (It was the screaming that was)
 The fear of leaving that was bad (The fear of leaving that was)
 Uh, uh, uh, yo
 Once upon a time, I believed in lines
 Like "I just wasn't good enough for you" and other lies
 Mr. "Didn't miss the water 'til the well was dry"
 Tried and I tried, compromise, compromise
 It was pouring into you while emptying me
 It was rationalizing all your toxicity
 It was hands around my neck with us on my back
 It was pressure, pain, and panic attacks
 Had me faded to the wire, putting out my fire
 Use to have requirements that turned into desires
 Expected to retire me while keeping you inspired
 All the women in me are tired
 Listen, nigga
 My abuela ain't survive several trips around the sun
 So I could give it to somebody's undeserving son
 This pussy don't pop for you, booty don't bop for you
 Never owe none, belong to no one
 Now I only trust patterns, not apologies
 First date questions, what's your ideologies?
 Do you love yourself? Are you healing your trauma?
 What's your concept of wealth? Do you check on yo mama?
 'Cause your loyalty ain't slavery, sis
 That shit insulting to her bravery, sis
 I know you tangled
 But this life is no exchange for your laboring, sis
 Withhold ya flavors, he unsavory, sis, sis
 I remember saying no to things that happened anyway
 I remember feeling low the mirror took my face away
 I couldn't recognize her, I laid and cried 'til my
 Tears washed the kitchen tiles, I swear I couldn't budge
 But then I talked about it 'til mama, sister, cousin
 Told me they went through it and since it's in my blood
 I knew I could do it 'cause if my blood went through it
 I knew I could endure it, I knew that I could heal it
 Oh, I'm trying to forgive, but can't forget
 It was bad, it was bad
 It was bad, it was bad
 It was the crying that was bad (It was the crying that was)
 It was the lying that was bad (It was the lying that was)
 It was the blaming that was bad (It was the blaming that was)
 The self-hating that was bad (The self-hating that was)
 It was the waiting that was bad (It was the waiting that was)
 It was the doubting that was bad (It was the doubting that was)
 It was the screaming that was bad (It was the screaming that was)
 The fear of leaving that was bad (The fear of leaving that was)