Remedy

So many questions and nobody seems to have the answers
 So many blessings and yet life still feels like a disaster
 Before and after pics of who you were back then and now
 Do you feel proud about your progress or you feel let down
 Did things turn out the you thought they would inside your head
 Like when I'm grown up mom and dad will be in love again
 I mean I can't be by myself I know you've wondered too
 It's detrimental to our health I know you feel the bruise
 Yeah
 There's still a lot of shit I'm dealing with
 I know it's not in vain cause these are parts he'll build me with
 But I'm still flesh so I'm prone to make all my mistakes
 Especially when I predicate my choices off my aches
 Fuck
 I hope you understand what I just said
 I base my choices off my past and all my broken ends
 If I offend you with my lifestyle remember this
 Where were you when I was down and filled with emptiness
 I feel so cold
 I killed my soul
 I feel so alone
 I have no one to hold me
 Sometimes it's hard to find acceptance huh
 Not from people but the one in your reflection huh
 Cause I know how it feels to hate the person staring back
 So we conceal our true identities and wear a mask
 Yeah, I know exactly how that tactic works
 The madness lurks behind a smile that has been well rehearsed
 I hate to burst your bubble but that act won't last too long
 One day you'll have to crack pack your bags and just move on
 Yeah
 Cause once upon a time that was me
 And suicide was on my mind and I was prepped to leave
 I felt deceived by the mirrors of my broken past
 Until I freed myself cause only I would hold me back