If Only

Where have you gone, old friend, lately?
 Just a boy in a suit
 So much joy to pursue
 Have you left me here waiting to grow up on my own?
 On this road, all alone?
 I am a desert of unfulfilled memories
 Skeletal pictures of that which will never be.
 What it is we dream.
 Lost in the thoughts of what never was,
 A child in the storm of madness because death calls,
 Unspoken, unseen.
 If only we hadn't listened
 To ambitions that were far beyond our reach.
 If only there was a way
 To take back yesterday
 You'd still be here with me.
 Why, oh, why
 Oh, why, oh, why.
 If only
 You were a second late
 To dream about yesterday.
 Why, oh, why
 Oh, why, did I?
 If only
 You never came for me.
 Where have you gone, Willow, lately?
 Just a girl in a dress
 With the world to impress.
 This morning I could feel the changes.
 Shadows on the wall,
 Laughing as we fall.
 All of my moments are fractured behind me,
 The toy of a girl that shattered inside of me,
 All before I said,
 "I do."
 And why does the silence simulate violence
 The cold and the quiet screams in defiance.
 Where did I misstep?
 Where did I lose?
 If only I had listened
 To the voices telling me to take it slow.
 If only
 I had known.
 Would I have chosen another road?
 Oh, if only I could let go.
 Why, oh, why,
 Oh, why, oh, why.
 If only.
 If only I could be home.
 Oh, why, oh, why.
 If only.
 If only.
 If only I had never gotten a letter.
 If only I had never wanted for better.
 If only I didn't stay up at night and miss you.
 If only I didn't feel like I feel when I'm with you.
 If only I was never lonely,
 And felt the city calling my name.
 If only I was never lonely.
 If only I never came.
 Why?
 Why?
 Why, oh, why,
 Oh, why, oh, why.
 If only
 I never fell in love with you.
 If only.
 If only.