Hold Tight

i cant sleep at night plus my chest feels tight
 things seem to be the worst theyve ever been in my life
 im slipping in the darkness and im searching for light
 plus the agents of satan try to silence my mic
 its the demons within nowadays that i fight
 i took a few steps back, will i ever reach the heights
 it'll be nice to have kids and a wife
 but i tend to do whats wrong even though i know whats right
 got a DWI, i?
 contemplating sellin that stuff they burn in blunts and pipes
 unholy thoughts cause me stress and strife
 although im tired im determined to fight the good fight
 i exist in a world thats more than black and white
 its like that space and time where day transitions the night
 hear if you master yourself you get general stripes
 just dont tempt the wolves because the beats bites
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 i feel im at a crossroad, i ask myself whats next
 i got a monkey on my back and hes addicted to sex
 things were simple as a child, but now theyre so complex
 should i, sell my soul to collect fatter checks?
 i know how to play my cards but im playin with fixed decks
 when i want to ease my mind i read ancient texts
 tryna occupy my time with different projects
 and when all else fails the deuce-deuce are backs
 where im at now in my journey, trust i didnt expect
 when theres a flaw in your design you blame the architect
 had the best intention, but wasnt living correct
 and day by day tighten the noose around my neck
 look at myself in the mirror and get vexed
 and i constantly ponder which course to select
 now my sorrows are (?) and get wet
 but i wont go out like the gunman at virginia tech
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