Distorted Rainbows

You're still haunting me, I reflect the love you've rained on me
 Screaming loud "why you still so close?"
 (Yeah)
 I Inhale all my fears in one polluted breath to see
 Could I suffocate your control?
 (Yeah)
 I've been losing my mind just tryna find simplicity...
 In "loving and letting go" go...
 Sad to say I remain restrained from the possibilities
 Out here crippling my self-growth
 I was hoping I could take my time (yeah)
 I just thought I would give it some time
 But at the end of every distorted rainbow in the sky was you...
 The man of my conviction
 But at the end of every distorted rainbow in the sky was you...
 (Yeah, yeah)
 Said I've been losing this...
 Heavy battle with myself, my mental- I try not to fall...
 When I stumble the angles, they watch and they gazed at it all
 Hear them laughing and pointing and singing? All in my demise
 I'm resilient til I see no paper to make the bills on time
 Wish I had the momentum to fight it and say that I'll survive
 But I'm weak and I will not deny that
 I'm scared of myself sometimes (yeah)
 Little black boy from the hood
 Who wish he could find some peace of mind (yeah)
 Some peace of mind (yeah, yeah)
 But at the end of every distorted rainbow in the sky was you...
 Yeah
 The man of my conviction
 But at the end of every distorted rainbow in the sky was you...
 I was hoping I could take my time (oh yeah)
 I just thought I would give it some time...