So Far Behind

Darkness with the light
 Blindness with the sight
 Wrongness with the right
 Disabling my will to action
 Sadness from the wasted
 Precious moments tasted
 Copied cut and pasted,
 Aching for some satisfaction
 And I hear the siren calling
 All my defenses stalling
 And my fear
 That keeps me falling
 So far
 So far behind
 Hands offered seeming nice
 But once I took it twice
 I had to pay the price
 A blank check on all that I owned
 Love comes seeming real
 But it's not what I feel
 It's just part of a deal,
 Where I can't pay back
 What I was loaned
 And I hear the siren calling
 All my defenses stalling
 And my fear
 That keeps me falling
 So far
 So far behind
 Is it forever, feeling my feet
 Stuck in a past amassed
 Of concrete?
 Do I have the strength,
 Do I have the time
 Or am I just the victim
 Of the perfect crime
 The perfect crime
 Now I'm...
 So far behind
 So, so far
 So far behind