X-Ray

Broken reality, there's no means of escape
 Broken reality, lookin' to leave this mind-state
 But the more that I leave the harder it seems I come back
 Now, I'm livin' out these lies that I call my trap
 And I call it that 'cuz I didn't do this intentionally
 What I now call my trap I used to call my fantasy
 And why do I fantasize in order to leave the reality
 Of not being able to relate personally or socially
 Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be respected
 But until then I'll dream about bein' accepted
 I wonder what it would feel like to be respected
 All wrong, no right, no one, no sun, no light
 This life, this fight, I'll hide inside, no matter
 Where you go, you can't escape what's inside
 Man, somebody get me out of this place
 Of loneliness, hopelessness, depression and disgrace
 At this pace I'm on the verge of self-destruction
 With nothin' to go on but my self instruction
 So what does that leave me, I try to communicate with the world
 But none of you out there could perceive me
 So instead of words I began to express through actions
 So anger an' rage become my mere satisfaction
 Hate fills my being, I'm seeing no means of release
 So I escape into my fantasy where I live in peace
 Here I can be anybody I want to, here I can be anybody I choose too
 Here in this place I feel good, there's no restriction
 This place is so good that it's becoming my addiction
 I say I'm not lost but why am I searching, I say pain don't fade me
 But then again why am I hurtin', I say I won't show emotion but yet
 I can't hide these eyes that have been stained by tears
 I say I can't be help back but yet I've been in the same place for years
 I say I wanna go free but something keeps me bound
 I say I wanna go higher but my feet haven't left the ground
 Man, I told y'all I didn't care but then again why is my heart so heavy?
 I told the world to bring it but deep down I knew I wasn't ready
 I said I couldn't be deceived meanwhile I'm walking
 Into the same old traps, I said I couldn't be broke
 As I watch my world collapse, watch my world collapse
 No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside
 No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside
 No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside
 No matter where I go
 No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside
 No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside
 No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside
 No matter where I go