Holdin Me Back

First love
 Young and naive with his first love
 Made me forget where the hurt was
 What a beauty that bloomed on the surface
 But when you dig that dirt up
 Bound to find a hole
 What it seem ain't so
 How you finna hold me down, if we can't take hold?
 Tryna rush to be a man
 Til a man can't grow
 I was nine years old
 You was all I know
 You built me up on some empty satisfaction
 Shit so good, I can find nothin to match it
 Guess it'd be different if this lasted more than moments
 But it doesn't so I'm hurting when I'm lonely
 Stuck on my relationship wichu
 That I'm not with myself
 I'm broken, weak, and too
 Ashamed to get some help
 Been a long time comin
 Look at all we been through
 Now it's done but I don't feel too sentimental
 Cause me and you live on a slippery slope
 Sought peace from the high, now I'm hittin a low
 Tryna throw myself past the tip of my toes
 And I would fall to my death if I could let you go
 You been holdin me back, holding me back
 You keep on holding me back
 Can't have you holding me, holding me back
 Artificial love, hard to give it up
 Governed by an instinct from a heart that I don't trust
 Ain't a part of me that doesn't feel the harshness of your touch
 There's a darkness there that wasn't here inside of me
 Wish I could free my mind from what you told me
 Made me feel like I needed you
 Called my strength into question
 Anything I want, can't see it through
 Got me like what would Jesus do?
 Shit, he was a man like me and you
 'Know he was tempted by the lure of the flesh
 Only if he could see the view
 Cause this right here unbeatable
 Shit so good infeasble
 Seein you prolly kin to the feel of how that boy from a needle ooze
 Guess that make me a fiend, a fool
 Guess you could get anything abused
 Think I see how bein stuck in self
 Made ruts 'good fuel for a singin dude
 From a generation seeking validation
 The effects of us growing up too fast
 Some from ig'nance, some neglect
 Wonder if I woulda learned if my father wouldna left
 Found my manhood in a woman that I barely even met
 Cause me who live on a slippery slope
 Sought a piece from the high now I'm hitting the low
 Tryna' throw myself at the tip of my toes
 And I would fall to my death if I could let you go
 You been holding me back
 Holding me back
 You keep on holding me back
 Can't have you holding me,holding me back yeah,yeah