Miss Wanna Die

Awake, I opened my eyes to see
 A hospital, so white and clean
 I was walking up to the roof, I think
 Then can't recall at all a single thing
 Held a hand for me, you were there
 I know, but couldn't reach
 The me that would fall down all the time
 But stand and reach my hand to see
 "Have you tried crossing over yet?"
 I wanna die, wanna die
 But don't really wanna die
 You were there, you would care
 Making me aware
 Every scar, all the blood
 More and more, they're never done
 Not enough, not enough
 I wanna die, wanna die
 But don't really wanna die
 If I die, you would cry
 And I don't know why
 Every scar, all the blood
 More and more, they're never done
 Not enough, not enough
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 When I forget you, I'm all alone without a place to go
 But then played a mirror like a show, the past I used to know
 A dream, 'til I see every part of me, eyes of red following and
 I wanna live, wanna live
 Deep inside I've always been
 Reaching out for a hand, so don't let this be the end
 Mushrooms growing on my head
 Still remember even then
 Where you are when I'm dead
 I wanna die, wanna die
 But don't really wanna die
 You were there, you would care
 You know it really isn't fair
 Every time I forgot
 You remain inside my thoughts
 Not enough, not enough
 I wanna die, wanna die
 Wanna die, but I still couldn't die
 With you by my side
 Behind the days I spent alone, afraid
 Now you're here to stay
 La-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la
 And the scars never fade
 Memories that replay
 Rewind yet again to the pain we felt on that day