Comatose

I down cups of sludge
 And stay up forever
 'Cause I'm too afraid of what happens
 When I fall asleep
 Can't drift away
 If you keep on holding tight
 Trust me, it's not worth the fight
 Baby I swear that
 I don't really know if I'm lying to you
 Or hiding the truth from myself
 And I'm sorry I'm not
 But you deserve to feel dumb
 If you thought I was somebody else
 I know that you checked my pulse
 To see if I was freaking out
 'Cause you were freaking out
 But I remain comatose
 From coast to coast
 'Cause everyone I care about
 Is miles away
 Can't figure out the words to say
 That I made a mistake
 It's not my fault
 If I can't see
 How you could fall so easily
 And I am never going to be
 What you saw inside of me
 I'm thinking of
 Reasons not to love you
 Ways I can push you away
 And it's safe to assume
 When you step in this room
 You should thank your stars for everyday
 I don't really know if I'm lying to you
 Or hiding the truth from myself
 And I'm sorry I'm not
 But you deserve to feel dumb
 If you thought I was somebody else