If I Ever Loved You

Baby, I was not the one
 I guess you know that now
 But I kept you real distracted for a while
 I look back and nothing much
 Ever comes to mind
 Sometimes I can picture half a smile
 And we were thick as thieves
 Hung on each others sleeves
 Kissing all the time
 But if I ever loved you
 Shouldn't I be crying?
 Shouldn't I be cracking up
 And drinking all the time?
 Yeah, if I ever loved you
 How come I feel alright?
 How come the nights are so easy
 And the mornings look so bright?
 I try to figure what has gone
 I seem to look the same
 Maybe there's a tightness around my eyes
 Sometimes the evening comes
 I think I miss someone
 And then I realize
 That if I ever loved you
 Shouldn't I be crying?
 Shouldn't I be cracking up
 And drinking all the time?
 Yeah, if I ever loved you
 How come I feel alright?
 How come the nights are so easy
 And the mornings look so bright?
 And love, it can make your world
 Bring you alive but I wasn't dead before
 So baby, you ain't hard to survive
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 Maybe I was not the one
 But I had to try
 And in the end there's no such thing
 As wasted time
 I was the interim
 Between nothingness and him
 So how is that a crime?
 But if I ever loved you
 Shouldn't I be crying?
 Shouldn't I be cracking up
 And drinking all the time?
 Yeah, if I ever loved you
 How come I feel alright?
 How come the nights are so easy
 And the mornings looks so bright?