I DONT GET LOVE

Okay, I been missing you,
 no way you been missing me
 I see you in my dreams, I want your company
 Reminiscing bout those nights, you were lying next to me
 You were lying straight to me
 I fucked up, too much, and I lost your love I guess
 Mama said don't trust your friends, but now I know I guess
 These drugs don't seem to work
 Always leave me in a mess
 Withdrawals got me feeling stressed
 fucked my ex
 Fuck her and fuck her
 Not just cause I fucked her, fucked her, but it's what she did to me
 So I yell out, fuck her, even tho deep down I think I love her
 Pop pills to forget about her don't think can forget about her
 What my eyes seen
 Can't forget about it
 An my ex bitch mad cus I left her on read
 Cut theres one still stuck in my head
 But fuck em both cus right now, nigga chasing the bread
 I needed some help, I needed a hand
 They left me for dead
 A closed heart, but you opened your legs
 She crazy, she crazy, she crazy
 Take a lot of shit to the heart cause they left me in the dark
 I ain't big on friends
 Fuck it, pass me the glizzy
 Diamonds bustin' like Izzy through the Sony on the lens
 Carrot candle, no flame
 Ain't no timeouts in the game, bitches choosing for the motion
 she was thinking I was asleep
 How did you me do so creep
 I had my eyes wide open
 It's been really hard to trust again
 Take it slow, I ain't even tryna rush again
 Back door game, checkmate, get a flush again
 Same nigga saying they untouchable, got touched again
 I don't need closure, I need medication
 No closure, I ain't chasing no explanation
 With your chest, no period, add exclamation
 On the road to riches, only God know my destination
 He knows my destination
 I'm just tryna make it there
 I'm just tryna make it there
 I wanted you bad, but bitch, you a dog
 You say it with love, ain't feel it enough
 Don't feel it enough
 So I gave my heart to the plug
 Catching no feelings at first was fun
 Just you were my gun, what happened to us
 What happened to us
 I fell in love, no
 Past a shit, you keep bringing it up
 These bitches I fucked, really don't know how to adjust
 Don't know how to adjust
 Gotta loosen all up,
 I gave my heart to the plug
 Let me buy some more
 Ima dope fiend baby I want some more
 I want my wok I gotta score
 Just tryna say you played me babe
 I tried to play you first I guess
 But who ever tried to hurt first gets it worse in the end
 That's karma man
 I wish I learned those lessons way before I played those hands
 But I don't even care
 I been on a mission
 And I been getting there
 Every fall I take is just a lesson not despair
 Work harder and harder
 So one day I'll be there
 Work harder and harder
 I know I'll soon be there
 I feel like shit let me start with that
 I been going through to much this week and that's a fact
 This is universe can't relax on me it loves attack
 Spit on me well bitch I'm spitting back
 Take a hit at me well bitch I'm swinging back
 Anything to ease my mind let me get that