Why Did You Do It?

A symphony of screen doors
 Slamming on a sunday
 Surf the couch
 Don't come home till Monday
 Long car rides and short answers
 Each day we're going nowhere faster
 This had got to end but i don't know where
 To begin. And i feel so ashamed when you
 Call my name or when i walk through the
 Front door.
 Each holiday is a tragedy,
 You keep screaming at me and keep
 Swinging at me, and then you wonder why
 Jamie's gone but it's been
 Coming for so long.
 I'm so great at holding back tears in your
 Face, i wish you knew how this felt,
 But you could never understand.
 This is the fourth chapter of my confession, I
 Hope you read it. I'm leaving footprints in the
 Snow from all my painful secrets
 And i can't forget, how could i forget
 And i can't forget all of the things you said.
 The apple starting rotting, so i painted it red.
 And made a caricature it of myself to be
 The perfect daughter for the world to see.
 Sit still, stand up straight.
 Smile, wave, don't be late.
 Do exactly as i say or
 You won't live to see another day.
 Pressure builds diamonds,
 But it breaks them too.
 So I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do
 Because it's just been weighing on my mind
 Stay here and die or run away and break
 I'm gonna take my one man army
 To the streets
 You can't stop me
 Don't even try
 You can't stop me
 Don't even try
 I wish i was never born
 I wish i was never born
 Never born
 I'm so great at holding back
 Tears in your face
 I wish you knew how this felt
 But you could never understand
 I'm so great at holding back
 Tears in your face
 I wish you knew how this felt
 But you could never understand
 This is the fifth draft of my confession
 I hope you read it
 Ive left my footprints in the snow with all
 My painful secrets
 Mom and dad; I'm sorry things
 Had to be this way
 I loved you both so much
 And i really wish things were different
 I feel so guilty, but i cant take this anymore
 The abuse; physical and mental. I'm leaving
 You but please just answer me this question;
 Why did you do it?