We're Drifting, Again

not again
 my friend
 my dear friend
 you're leaving me again
 and this time
 i think you're gone for good
 i think you're gone for good
 strangely enough
 i feel free
 did you lock me down
 and could you see
 a monster
 has me in my sleep
 and it's you
 infesting me
 ripping me from my inside out
 you tried to fight me
 you terrified me
 and even though i helped you out
 you still defied me
 you still lied to me
 apologies clearing clouds of doubt
 but it's still rainy
 and it's still hazy
 maybe i'm just a little crazy
 a dead air filled the room
 i got tired of holding my breath
 and your words reached out for me
 and i reluctantly responded
 got your message just yesterday
 seems like things are going your way
 made me rethink my words
 you're not a monster at all
 must've been my imagination
 i'm overthinking again
 you've given me so much
 i feel i didn't give enough back
 we're losing touch
 i wonder if you'll ever come back
 please don't mind the first half
 just thought i should let you know
 it wasn't all that bad
 you truly were great
 and i'll never forget you
 i'll never forget you