Satellites & Rearview Mirrors

I can't play the sidelines
 Releasing these flaws of mine
 Tea leaves help my thoughts align
 I need to let go
 Open doors like suicide
 Keeping me from living life
 Tea leaves help my thoughts align
 Think I'm too close to you
 Satellites, rearview mirrors, and I
 I can't reach for the sky
 And for you at the same time
 Chipped my tooth on your pride
 Filled my shoes up with ice
 Sing your songs till I cry
 What you are don't make me
 What you know don't make life
 Pick a side, pick a side won't you
 That big forehead must be good for something, don't you
 Overthink it, well think a little
 You can't grasp what's out your reach if you stay in middle
 If you keep living in the past
 You'll have a lot of rent dude
 Screw or wrench you'll have to come up with something
 like tommy pickles
 It's a sticky situation tryna change fate
 It's like stepping on the wine and tryna make grapes
 But Imma do it anyway
 Even if that means that I'll be canceling my dinner dates
 A room full of fumes I'm thinking it's time to ventilate
 I'm not attacking you I'm just protecting my energy
 Power level 10,000
 But who's counting thoughts flow out my pen's fountain
 Now you drowning, focusing on my intent
 Feel like 50 cent many men doubting
 I can't play the sidelines
 Releasing these flaws of mine
 Tea leaves help my thoughts align
 I need to let go
 Open doors like suicide
 Keeping me from living life
 Tea leaves help my thoughts align
 Think I'm too close to you
 Satellites, rearview mirrors, and I
 I can't reach for the sky
 And for you at the same time
 Chipped my tooth on your pride
 Filled my shoes up with ice
 Sing your songs till I cry
 What you are don't make me
 What you know don't make life
 I know what you're saying the saying's family first
 But lately I wanna skip holidays seeing family hurts
 A fraction of what we used to be
 Standing around the casket but no one will read the eulogy
 We're all on our phones in different rooms
 Shit ain't really felt like a home since my mother moved
 I think I'm too close to you
 Blood related strangers doing shit that we're supposed to do
 But if not for our DNA
 Would we even be pretending we like each other
 My brother showed up late and my brother don't like my brother
 And I can't help but wonder
 Maybe if I get rich I could buy time
 Every years a difference in allegiance on the sidelines
 Often conflicted
 Though I'd rather be ignant
 My friends ask me how my trip was
 Can't gather a sentence
 Shit feels a little broken at the moment
 But regardless of the trouble
 I say all that to say all this, I love you
 I can't play the side
 Think I'm too close to you
 Sweet as it seems
 I gotta let go
 Chipped my tooth on your pride
 Leaves aint freeing my mind
 Think I'm too close