Frustrations + Solutions

I need some candy to restore my calmness
 I've had some crazy freakouts lately
 
 I kicked all my shit around my closet
 Nobody is coming to tell me to stop it
 My shoes, they scuffed my white walls
 I punched my cupcake beanbag (yes, I have a cupcake beanbag)
 'Til I fell tired and embarrassed enough
 
 And I was careless enough
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 Feeling like a dick, picking it all up again
 Feeling so much like a dick just to pick it up again
 Feeling so, so, so, so tired
 Of feeling so, so, so, so numb
 Stomped and I screamed there
 Flinging ideas straight down from the halls
 Like in a movie scene where
 All of you watch behind a glass wall
 I'm pacing back and fourth
 Exhausting myself for my own gratification
 To no one
 Embarrassing programming
 And when I find the mess in the floor, temper tantrum over
 Reorganizing all that i tore from life's rightful order
 I'll say I learned some sort of lesson (I wish that I could take it back, but where to start?)
 (But where you at? I'm fucking up my photograph)
 When I felt dumb enough to question (and I'm losing it)
 Feeling like a dick, picking it all up again
 So much like a dick just to pick it up again
 Everything is so, so, so, so tiring (so tiring)
 Everything is so, so, so, so dumb (so dumb)