Fulfillment?

I'll take my shit out of the box, I guess
 It's too late to feel so lost, I bet
 All this seems to kind of drag
 Behind in my redwagon ride
 Just relax, lighten the load
 Of all the things that make me want to gag
 Get rid of you and me and him and her and this and that
 Kicking and screaming, pulling the things that made me happiest
 I stay awake
 Just me and my cherry radio flyer
 Dreaming of all the ways we'll push higher
 Hoping that one of these days feels a bit lighter
 And I hope I'll find
 Something to live for, for
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 Stop for a second
 Take a breath, learn a lesson
 Staring at the walls for something new
 In my mind, I'm living in the zoo trying to pet the animals
 Just step back, lighten the load of all the things that I don't have to pack
 Would it be wrong if I chose to just leave it here?
 Like my sandals and my sunscreen or my passport and my daydreams
 Fuck, I don't need my daydreams
 I stay awake
 One foot in front of the next on the wire
 Praying if there's a god, I don't look down now
 Praying this is the day I get it right now
 Ooh, right now, hope I'll find
 Something to live for, for
 Hope I'll find something to live for, for
 Before I'm no longer freer
 Don't look down
 Don't look down
 Don't look down
 Don't look