I Wonder

That's right, I got problems and personal issues
 Stories that'll make ya eyes tear and wet tissue
 It's true, I'm Madd like the rapper
 I'm so upset I gotta put it up in my rap before I snapper
 After the things I've seen from Atlanta to Queens
 To the mean streets of Brooklyn when I was a teen
 Back and forth to the Islands, scream when I left
 But adapted, and still my dreams haven't left
 I only hung with the crack kids we not the best
 Me and the ruffest ruffnecks went chest to chest
 Now my best friend's locked up north, I won't rest
 'Til I let him live his dream threw me, and I confess
 That even though both our hearts was dark his was darker
 Best believe when shit got spark, he was the sparker
 And when the block got hot he was the fire starter
 And if I had beef my nigga Raja was a martyr
 I wonder how certain people come in my life
 I wonder why'd I get in so many fights
 I wonder why sometimes things just don't go right
 Why I gotta live this life, ay-ay
 I wonder how certain people come in my life
 I wonder why'd I get in so many fights
 I wonder why I gotta live this life, ay-ay
 Yo, you're one of the most important people in my life
 They called you Dice but I called you cousin
 We was buggin 'cause I figured that we both had something in common
 You loved to chat reggae music and I loved rhymin'
 But still they ain't call you Dice for nothin'
 I seen you shoot with the williest cats and leave them with nothing
 Somethin' must have pleased that bluffer in you
 To make you wanna take dough from those tougher than you
 Throughout school we made money together
 When you was on the floor shootin', I was the side better
 And yo we cleaned out them cats and took the scraps
 But you wasn't a ruff cat and cats knew that
 I knew eventually them thugs would try to hurt you
 If I was there, I'd never let nobody hurt you, it's hurtful
 I knew they wouldn't let you take the money and run
 That's why I shoulda came when you told me to come
 I wonder how certain people come in my life
 I wonder why'd I get in so many fights
 I wonder why I gotta live this life, ay-ay
 I wonder how certain things don't go right
 I wonder why'd I get in so many fights
 I wonder why I gotta live this life, ay-ay
 Yo, it was June 6th '96, Graduation night
 Made it threw the school shish shootin' dice gettin' in fights
 I even sparked a riot 'til the school got quiet
 And dismiss just got tired of usin' my fists
 We had some shit like knife pipes bottles and sticks
 Can't forget them 380's, Nine's and 22's
 Best believe, many dudes was paid in my crew
 We made a name for ourselves, boy, I've seen some drama
 Seems my momma never dreamed she'd go threw so much trauma comma, pause
 You ask about cops and laws
 Well, that shit don't exist when you black and poor
 So we broke 'em, but at that night my heart got broken
 Chokin' on the weed smoke, drinkin' rum and gettin' open
 Not to mention, never a big drinker, I'm a thinker
 But I'm thinkin' hey this my night, pass me more liquor
 Fight breaks out, I'm just too nice to get in it
 But my brother got stabbed and I missed it
 Word up, it's crazy
 Why I gotta live this life (wonder) ay-ay
 I wonder why sometimes things just don't go right
 I wonder why certain people come in my life
 I wonder, yeah, why I gotta live this life, ay-ay
 I wonder why sometimes things just don't go right
 I wonder why'd I get in so many fights
 I wonder, ay, why I gotta live this life, ay-ay
 I wonder why sometimes things just don't go right
 I wonder why I gotta live this life
 I wonder why I gotta live this life, ay-ay, ay-ay
 That's right, my life, your life