Edicius

Sometimes you gotta talk for the ones who-
 Who ain't here
 So I'ma talk for 'em
 I never wanted to kill myself
 Just end a part of me
 And never got a chance to heal myself
 So it's a part of me
 It's me, if you're wonderin', who I'm at war with
 Old version of me, sitting by dormant
 It bleeds
 All over me
 There's no tourniquet available
 A bandage that will make it go
 It's seeping through my pores
 Until I drown, it's unescapable
 It's deep
 Getting hard to breathe
 Suffocated by anxiety
 Who I do not try to be
 Who the hell lied to me?
 'Cause I don't think that I can be free
 When the doctor said, "Speak"
 I said
 I never wanted to kill myself
 Just end a part of me
 And never got a chance to heal myself
 So it's a part of me
 It's me, if you're wonderin', who I'm at war with
 Old version of me, sitting by dormant
 It bleeds
 All over me
 The pressure builds, I can't blame my peers
 I look in the mirror just to face my fears
 Most deaf needs support can they not hear
 When your criteria is you can't cry tears
 That will I am that go shake my sphere
 Face to face with the king, gave my lear
 Bloodshed and Van Gogh I gave my ear
 Now I mutant shapeshift to change my gears
 It made me a monster that today's right here
 A prison inside me I gave my years
 This feeling is toxic how I waste my beer
 My demons are locked in the safe not near
 How can I drive straight and face thy rear?
 If you ever odd been they I feared
 Off in the dark where my day's not clear
 To face the music and play by ear
 Listen every wish that they repeatedly feeding me
 Got me needing my greenery and I drank my beer
 These demons believing me and I think of deleting me
 But is something that people cling to and save like here
 Or for me to sin evil deed and I think that I need
 To be ridding me of an evil me, I'll erase my smear
 All over the scene, I need my G OG to speak to me
 And my years on with these homies 'cause I ain't Nasir, yeah
 A song for the misfits
 Light a blunt, get a bong, take a quick hit
 If you got ya alcohol, take a quick sip
 We don't wanna be gone from existence
 Just erasing a part within
 Kamikaze in part, maybe with it
 I don't know, just a thought I said with
 Suicide or call it Edicius
 'Cause I never wanted to kill myself
 Just end a part of me
 And never got a chance to heal myself
 So it's a part of me
 It's me, if you're wonderin', who I'm at war with
 Old version of me, sitting by dormant
 It bleeds
 All over me
 There's no tourniquet available
 A bandage that will make it go
 It's seeping through my pores
 Until I drown, it's unescapable
 It's deep
 Getting hard to breathe
 Suffocated by anxiety
 Who I do not try to be
 Who the hell lied to me?
 'Cause I don't think that I can be free
 When the doctor said, "Speak"
 I said, "I never wanted to"