Conduit

I had that dream again
 Grinding teeth through an absent head
 Losing control again
 
 To forget is to be calm
 By passing broken fingers through aching palms
 You will awake again
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 (If all you are is under the surface)
 (Then why is it so hard to be a conduit?)
 "I went lucid" she said
 Tried every minute of my waking unconsciousness
 To start again
 But the man in the doorway, he always had better plans
 'Cause an idle mind is the fault of idle hands
 And you can't break the boy to forge a better man
 (If all you are is under the surface)
 (Then why is it so hard to be a conduit?)
 If all you are is under the surface
 Then why is it so hard to be a conduit?
 If all you are is under the surface
 Then why is it so hard to be a conduit?
 Chalk it up to cognitive dissonance
 I am aware and I will remember this
 If all you are is under the surface
 Then why is it so hard to be a conduit?